Beholden

I am not beholden to anyone
You are not owed an excuse or explanation
If you feel you have been wronged
Take it up with someone else
I have just dismissed you from my conscience

I am no one’s sidekick or loyal servant
I am only loyal to what brings my ends
I do right because right needs to be done
But sometimes wrongs are righteous, too
And I have deemed you worthy of ignoring you

You are not beholden to decency
Thus why I dismiss you eternally
Enjoy your days as far away
As I stay here in a blissful haze
And no one will ever need to bother you

I am not beholden to anyone
You are not my master or my employer
Why would you want to follow
When you can forge your own road?
I owe you nothing, so leave me be

Dorothy Jane

I’ve watched you in the window as you spoke to the Man in the Moon
Wishing I had someone as interesting to talk to as you
With your light southern drawl and your innocent love
Of the simple things, small, private, and yours alone
If only I could be as close to you as the Man in the Moon
In the quiet things that no one ever knows
As we tell ourselves the tales of ordinary days
I dream of you with the Man in the Moon
Sitting together at night by your window
Sharing our stories, our thoughts and our dreams
Hoping that someone out there is listening to us

As we profess a love beyond ourselves

Into the night's sky, never to be forgotten

Opposite Lovers

I’m living from left to the right

Between the Heavens and Hell

Inside me, there’s a tornado

That could tear my world apart

I could be disassembled

Then put myself back together

But would any of that matter

If I were to lose my heart?

I dream of resolution

As if peace were mine to hold

I am longing for justice

Just to find my needs ignored

What is the opposite of love?

Could it be truly hatred?

Chances are I’m overthinking

Maybe you’ve just gotten bored

We are opposite lovers

Too far apart to be absolved

How could I know if I’d love your soul

Inside the body of another?

I don’t know who you are

I’m not a mystery to solve

But your absence leaves me cold

As I’m sure you’ll soon discover

Accountability

Why the hell is it so hard to hold murderers accountable for their actions?
Why are we so willing to do just about anything BUT hold murderers accountable?
We'll change names
And recast voice actors
And pull questionable episodes
And paint murals on streets
But we can't hold murderers accountable for their actions?

What the hell is wrong with us?

My Stepdad, The Wanna-Be Cop

My former stepdad was a police fanboy, but he never had the guts to follow through with it and go to the academy. To what should come as no surprise to anyone whatsoever, he was a shiftless, lying, cheating, financially irresponsible, racist thief who sexually assaulted several women and cheated on my mom the entire time they were married. And this fuck up thought he was qualified to be a cop.

Sadly... He probably was.