A Love Story

My heart cries out for two names

And one of them is a lie

The other one was you, the great love of my life

I have done all I can to see joy in your eyes

But there were things I knew that I could never give

That’s where he came in, your prince in the bright moonlight

He gave you a home and love and the children you hold dear

I could never be that man

So I had to let you go

15 years is a long time to bury a heart’s wish

The temptation I try so hard to deny myself

If I once, for a second, believed I could give you the life you deserve

I live my life as a drifter, a wandering bohemian

My life has been uprooted far too many times to stay in one place

I once believed that roots were the one thing I could never have

But roots just cannot grow without some sense of permanence

Now that I finally found my home, you creep back into my mind

To once again remind me of what I’ve always known

No one ever stays still

Not in the world I’ve lived

You were just one of a million faces I have seen

I still hold a candle for you

Hoping that my love for you will override my desire to be your wife

Knowing you have exactly what you wished all of your life

Something I just can’t be

Bad Romance Part III

Would thou’st be mine
Or let me become yours
Despite all our sins and this world’s revelry
In your execution here in slow-motion? 

Of sun-bleached skin and auburn eyes
A rose will die, and I’m forced to sit here and abide
I care not for the sins or the wronged
For I’ve seen the scars you bear
There is no sanity left to my obsession
Just words ripped from my heart to this page
Sometimes I wish I could be rid of this
Accursed heart that shan’t move past your name
But damned I am or damned am not
My foolhardy heart is undeterred to seek you
If you’d call my heart devout
 
Upon your glowing face, a light has shown to me
the graciousness of your genuine heart and ecstasy
And fool I am, I wish to know your every dream
And make them all come true, I swear you
 
I’ll become an emo-screamo
Turn me into a cuckold bitch
Let me burn the world inside me
I can bleed like this forever
Rend my senses from the logic
Scar your number on my skin
Let me take upon your name in love
Until the day I fucking die!
 
I wish there was a saner way to handle all there is inside me
Raging against itself in love and hate and ignorance
All that’s left is fucking pain
I can no longer breathe inside my home
I’m tormented by plastered walls
All the color and the chaos that should bring me joy
Only reminds me of just how far away you are
And just how drab and the harsh the walls must be
For you, removed from all life’s beauty
Left to fucking die in dust with no one here
Left to love you
 
And until nothing’s left I bind my heart to you
And until there’s no life left in me, I’ll hold on to you
And when the world does die around us broiled in flames
I would remake the world of Eden for our escape
 
Let the demons come for my soul
I’ll become the antichrist
May my sword be stained in blood
Wear my scars, my sacred vow
I refuse to ever let you
Fall to fate and destiny
Without knowing that I’ll love you
Until the day I fucking die!
 
And when all sense has finally gone
I can see us stand together
In a plain of nonexistence
With nothing more than the sounds of our hearts
 
I’ll become the final villain
Let this rage tattoo my headstone
Mark the words “I loved a psycho”
I will bear this scorn for you
I will promise you this one thing
If you were to ever have me
I’ll protect your heart as sacred
Until the day I fucking die!
 
I’ll become the final villain
Let these beasts come one by one
They shall fall by my sword
Or I’ll die impaled on theirs
If I can’t fucking save you
If this love is meant to fail
Please know that I died here
As this final villain

All for you
 

The Despised Divine

I hate every day that I’ve failed to burn you in effigy
Oblivious to the tune of your lifestyle’s melody
Lyrics in the trees that hang so low that they mean nothing at all
Obsequious to you

Interpreting the wanton speech of your lyrical extremes
Clouded by illusions rising from waters like steam
Creating the rain clouds meant to drown the whole of time
Obfuscated by you

I’ve breathed in the wartime air beneath your liar’s smile
Coughing up the fires of desolation in my wake
It’s only fitting that I turn my rage to the despised divine
Obliterating you

Inspired By A White Stripes Song

Suffocated in a wounded soul
As I make my way down to Mexico
Meg White is breathing down my back
As Jack sings a song of Jericho
Not sure what I’m doing here
As I've never done the fame thing well
A bus ride to the Pearly Gates
Might as well be a bike ride to Hell

I fortified my southern wall
Just to keep out all the invaders
Put an ocean between you and me
‘Cause you act like a bunch of first graders
Oh, I’m sure I could tour the world
Play all the bars and finally make it
But I swear to God as my witness
That I will grow to despise my biggest hit

I don’t want negative attention
For things I do just for fun
I’m not a monkey on a leash
You can just parade out to everyone
I alone say how I’m going to play
And everyone else can kindly piss off
I’m hardly the kind of superstar
That won’t make you take a taste of Molotov

Sauron

The harsher cold of the fading light
Set the time to hasten the foreboding night
The time creeps in where the nightmares thrive
And we’re lucky to still be alive
We watch the sun fade into a darkened red
A sky filled with the blood of our ungrateful dead
We set here to watch the ever-faithful die
Trapped in the sight of the all-seeing I 

How can the cold consume us all?
Why can the cold destroy a soul?
Where does daylight grow to die?
Why must the darkness make us cry?

Dead leaves like a carpet underfoot
Destined to rot like infested wood
Bugs eat away at the life’s insides
Yet we dare to call it suicide?
As we lay and revel in our hell
Locked away inside a prison cell
No light shines in the concrete sky
Under the watch of the all-seeing I

Is impending death a righteous goal for you?
The winter breeds a cold long overdue
To leave us suffer under this spiteful song
From our hearts left frozen for oh so long

Bathed in the light of the all-seeing I
May be the last thing you will see before you die