Bad Romance Part II

She kills me in the moments of lapsed judgment

I'm going behind friends' backs in order to keep in contact

They all say that she's a liar and there's little to dispute that

She is an irresponsible child but I just can't keep her off my mind

There are no winners in this game I'm playing

Even if I get what I want, I could lose almost everything

She may not even be worth the effort I'm putting into this

But my rational mind won't intervene long enough to stop me from doing it

Loneliness can feel like a curse if it goes on long enough

There comes a point where you'll take stupid risks just to know if love can still happen for you

I know she's a risk with a history of broken hearts that trail behind her

But how much of that trail is real, and how much of that is the exaggeration of jilted exes?

That's how I justify this, by not knowing both sides of the story

By believing that there's more to things than what my friends are saying

Because I observe all of these things from a third-person perspective

And I understand the biases in place which creates fractured truths from objective facts

She kills me in the moments when I let my judgment lapse

She may not even realize, yet, why I've chosen to keep in contact

No one ever seems to know when I'm making a blatant move

Maybe I'm just as much a liar as her exes claim that she is

Here I am, ready to take advantage of a girl that takes advantage of everyone around her

Something says that I really shouldn't do this, but the voice isn't strong enough to put an end to this

The rational mind that usually intervenes has gone on vacation

I move on bad judgment, poor instincts, and a complete disregard of others' advice

She kills me in the moments where better judgment dies

A deadly game that no one with sense should ever want to play

But that's the catch of having romantic urges

Logic is the enemy of everything the heart longs for

Especially her