Dear You,
They say you should never meet your heroes
They'll only disappoint you
I've only known about you for a little over a month
But I admired you
Which only made what you really had to say about me that much
harder to process
I was a captive audience for you the night before
You had my undivided attention
But I guess I should have known when you couldn't be bothered
to get off of your phone
That you had no use for me, my words or my world
Dear You,
I feel like you blocked me because you were ashamed to tell
me the truth
That you lacked the strength of your convictions
And only felt safe speaking your true feelings when you knew
I'd never see them
Or maybe, you simply didn't care if I ever found out
Well, I did. Friends
of mine made it their place to be your messenger
I honestly wish they hadn't
But at least now I know the truth about you
Or at the very least, the truth about how you see me
Dear You,
I'm not afraid to tell you that I was in awe of you
It's one thing to see someone from afar, be somewhat familiar
with their work
It's an entire other thing to sit in the same room
approximately three feet apart from one another
You were even better than I imagined
I was completely enamored by you
All I wanted was for you to be a small part of my life
I've met many great people through poetry
I was hoping to add you to that list
To keep in contact and hope that some of your greatness might
rub off on me
Or, at the very least, to be able have a nice chat every now
and then
None of that will happen, now
You've made it clear that you want nothing to do with me
And I'm more than willing to oblige you
Dear You,
The night we first met, I had a few kind hours of beautiful
thoughts
Exploring possibilities that, while unlikely, were nice to
indulge in
I want to thank you for shattering those visions so
decisively
Few have ever had your level of brutal mercy to that end
I want to hate you, but I can't. I have no desire for it
Friends say that they hope you're not as single-dimensional
as I have cause to believe
But I've coaxed this level of disgust out of others before
You needed no such coaxing
I finally know the truth about you, how you operate, how you
deal with others
My heart will eventually mend, but I fear yours will remain
as poisoned as the day we met
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